Love is Dead

Nothing ever goes right
Nothing really flows in my life
No one really cares if no one ever shares my care
People push by with fear in their eyes in my life

Love is dead, love is dead

The telephone rings, but no one ever thinks to speak to me
The traffic speeds by, but no one's ever stopped too late
Intelligent friends don't care in the end, believe me

Love is dead, love is dead

And plastic people with imaginary smiles
Exchanging secrets at the back of their minds
Plastic people
Plastic people

Nothing ever goes right
Nothing really flows in my life
No one really cares if this horror's inside my head

People push by with fear in their eyes in my life

Love is dead, love is dead
Love is dead, love is dead
Love is dead, love is dead

And all the lies that you've given us
And all the things things that you said

And all the lies that you've given us...
Blow like wind in my head.

copyright from Suede - Love is Dead

I'M NOT THERE - the girl's story

She's blood, flesh and bone
no tucks or silicone
She's touch, smell, sight, taste and sound
but somehow I can't believe
that anything should happen
I know where I belong
and nothing's gonna happen, yeah.

Cause she's so high, high above me, she's so lovely.
She's so high, like Cleopatra, Joan of Arc or Aphrodite
Do, do, do, do do
She's so high, high above me.

A first class and fancy free,
she's high society,
she's got the best of everything.
What could a guy like me ever really offer?
She's perfect as she can be,
why should I even bother --- Aha

Cause she's so high, high above me, she's so lovely
she's so high, like Cleopatra, Joan of Arc or Aphrodite
Do, do, do, do do
she's so high, high above me

She comes to speak to me,
I freeze immediately,
cause what she says sounds so unreal,
Somehow I can't believe,
that anything should happen
I know where I belong
and nothing's gonna happen, yeah yeah yeah

Cause she's so high, high above me, she's so lovely
she's so high, like Cleopatra, Joan of Arc or Aphrodite
Oh yeah yeah yeah
she's so high, high above me.

-SHE'S SO HIGH(above me) by Tal Bachman



There's nothing to tell about this girl except that she's nice and kind. She also famous among her friends. Naka fells for her for a reason that Naka also didn't knows. But there are a thing that he notices. She got many secret admires, perhaps. That because she is adorable. It is hard for Naka because he knows that he will lose in the first place 'cause he got nothing compared to others. He is a charmless man. Pity him. But that won't stop Naka from be friend with that girl. So, Naka makes his first moves. A move that changes everything. Goodluck Naka!

Naka's Story

Normal life. That will be the best word to describe him. Naka is an ordinary people. He likes to hanging out with friends and all other things that young people do. But, while enjoying, he is still remember to follow his religion's rule. Naka isn't great in his study. Maybe he always playing around. He have many friends, but only one person that is truly close to him. He's Eki. Compared to Naka, Eki is a smart boy. Eki is famous among their friends because of his knowledge. Both of them really close together since their first meeting when their age were up to double digits. For Naka, Eki is like his brother. They're always support each other comes hell or high water. It's just like they share the same bloodlines. Eki always be the person that Naka asks for advices. Naka tells Eki about the girl he loves. And Eki, always be a good listener. Unfortunately, after a few years, both of them split up because of something unavoidable. But, their friendship remains strong. Naka couldn't accept that and he was truly sad for losing his real bestfriend. He feels like he was losing his other half. No one would be there when he want an accompany. No one will ever listen to his problem again. All his never-ending love is keep deep inside his heart without letting anyone knows about it. Love, life, all the things were never works out for Naka. Pity him.


But I've been sailing down this river alone
And I'm still trying to find my way back home
But I don't believe in magic
Life is automatic
But I don't mind being on my own
Said that I don't mind being on my own

storytelling: I'M NOT THERE (cont)

His name is Naka. He always have a sense of humor in his action. Maybe, that's why he got many friends beside him. His life is really joyful, with nothings to worry about. Naka loves sports, as he loves something beautiful for his ears. He lives normally until one day, the day that he found a girl from his village too. There's one thing that is special about Naka. Only a few of his friends is girls, the others is boys. So, Naka is pretty awkward to communicate with a girl. Day by day, week by week passed, Naka felt something was wrong with him. He don't know what and why, but he keeps thinking of that girl. Perhaps, that was called love in a first sight. Naka for the very first time in his life, loves someone. Lucky him.

yeah i’m seeing
a whole nother world in my mind
girl im feeling
i’m breathing in love all the time

you turn me on, love’s like a bomb, blowing my mind
you turn me on, love’s like a bomb, blowing my mind


He promised to himself if he accidentally seeing that girl, he would greet her. Day comes and go, he have not seeing her for a while. But until one day, when he's walking alone, he realize that he is heading towards that girl. He say to himself "Man, this is the chance!". But really, he screws that chance away just by smiling to that girl. His mouth couldn't ever speak one word. And after all, he just get one smile from her. But a very sincere one. Definitely, it would be enough for Naka for a while.

To Be Continued.

5 years searching for love.

5 years looking for love.

the very 1st year. found nothing. a bad start perhaps.

the 2nd year. found something, gain nothing except one, the vary valuable one. it was 'friendship'. don't know what it mean, but i know what it is.

3rd year. i'm a simple man with simple needs. friends more valuable then girls out there, really helping. so still, nothing changed and i'm glad.

4th year. i'm waiting for the moon to rise. but unfortunately, the moon was never ever try to help. it was really hard to read the moon's mind.

the 5th years. i've traveled down a long and winding road. feel what it feels like. yet, i sense something was missing. the biggest thing. i've found what i've been looking for and i'll fight for it till both of my eyes closed. for my last word will be 'ashhaduallailahaillallah, waashaduannamuhammadanrasulullah'. InsyaAllah.