Assalamualaikum, Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.
Here's me again after a long break, and I finally get myself to write again. Or should I say a comeback?
And now I wanna ask myself something. Life, what for?
I spent 24 hours a day, 7 days for a week, and all of my for the past two decades of my life for what? Now, as i keep thinking about it, i can say that me, was useless. There was nothing to be proud for.
Sure, forget about my childhood. Back then I really don't know anything. Those time was really just for fun. Living like there are nothing to care for.
But when i reached the age of teen, what am i doing? Sad but true, i'm just enjoying my time with me mates. I do nothing good. I could say that my study wasn't really bad, but its not too good either. I couldn't make my parents proud. Well, i'm pretty sure that they were proud of me. Where on earth that the parents didn't love their son, am i right? But for some reason, i could sense the disappointment in their heart. Me feels very sorry, mom and dad.
And now i'm twenty something. I'm no longer a boy, and i'm slowly being a man. Which means, I've a big responsibility for me myself, for family and others. But again, WHAT AM I DOING? So fool of me. I forget the responsibility, that my parents gave to me, that others gave to me, and among all, the biggest responsibility that My Lord, Allah s.w.t gave me before i starts breathing in this beautiful world. The first responsibility among all, to be a loyal servant to Him, to be a better Muslim. Untuk BERIMAN kepada yang Maha Esa.
Forgive me My Lord, i'm blinded in my past life. Guide me to your way, help me. I was once disobey you, and i really don't want that to happen again. Perhaps it's never too late for me. InshaAllah.
